Driving myself nuts with this gestational diabetes confusion

hi~ so! currently 29+6 and planning for a homebirth in august. i’ve been monitoring my glucose— all of my after meal numbers are great! low to normal, no matter what i eat! about half of my fasting numbers are borderline high, like right on the edge or a point above. i failed my glucose tolerance test at the hospital.

midwife says if i can get numbers down with diet and exercise, then she’s chill to proceed with a homebirth. the perenatal endocrinologist at the hospital is recommending low low dose night time insulin to “make sure fasting numbers don’t get into a risky range” … but if i start the insulin, i wonder if homebirth midwife would still be comfortable proceeding with a homebirth? i’ll talk to her monday. but this whole gd thing has me totally freaked out. because i’m borderline, i feel like “ok maybe it’s not that bad” but everyone who sees that i even have borderline numbers is like “you’re diabetic! plan accordingly.”

it’s really confusing and i’m super scared to lose my homebirth option! but also super scared re placental deficiency, a hypoglycemic baby, a bb with macrosomia ~ i’m less nervous about the latter 2, with these numbers but the placental deficiency bc of gdm is super scary to me.

i’ve read lily nichols’ book, i already eat excellently, like EXCELLENTLY, i exercise after every meal, i’m doing most everything i can. just wondering if any other home birthers have navigated this— and how they navigated.

thank you!!!!