I don't even want this anymore?

Anything transition related is pushed back years, until I can leave my country, but it makes me question if I even want to transition or put up with misgendering for life. Tbh it'd be better if I could be just out and accepted without the need for hormones and surgery, but the majority of people aren't open and tolerating like that imo.

Did anything help the dysphoria pre-everything for you? I just want something to hold onto I guess?