28M Absolute Failure

As title says. Went and graduated from a university with a bio degree in 2018 that I never used after deciding not to pursue pre-med once COVID hit.

Worked odd jobs until in 2021 decided to pursue programming after discovering it and realized it was something I really enjoyed. Started a second degree in community college only to halt after 2 years and went to a coding bootcamp in 2023 dropping 20k.

Havent been able to land a job…Now the job market is cooked. Im working a dead end office job making 50k a year, only 6k in savings. Everyone else I grew up with is wildly successful.

Only thing I like about my life is I discovered a hobbies I genuinely love out of pure luck (skydiving, scuba, snowboarding) and I can’t afford to pursue them to the level I want to due to my financial situation. I have a partner and family who love and support me but I can’t get over myself for making wrong decisions and not being as driven or emotionally mature earlier in my life to have made wiser choices that wouldve set me up for success today.

Somedays I wake up wishing I could off myself for a chance at a do-over but cant because of how it would affect my loved ones.

Feel very unsure about myself and what I should do next career wise. Anyone else in the same boat or that could offer perspective?