Almost 40, never lived

Throwaway, obviously lol. I am 39f, and have been disabled for about half of my life (GI issues). Within the past year, I have had the best healthcare/doctors, am actually overcoming my disability, and legitimately FEEL better than I have in 2 decades. No medical devices or anything to hold me back.

I want to work SO bad. I want to be useful. I want to actually work and contribute to this world. I want to live! But... I've never had a job. I had to drop out of college when I got sick. I've never been on a date. I've never kissed anybody. Where the hell do I start? Is it pointless to try and start living at 40? I never thought I'd feel this good in my body, with my health. But I feel like it's too late... for anything. What do I do?!

(Going back to school right now is not an option. Hopefully one day! I'd like to go into nursing if that could happen)