Am I safe if not what now?

I’ve been with a narcissist or psychopath whatever he may be, on and off for over five years. This relationship has been nothing more than just toxicity, filled with many forms and kinds of abuse. I was never aware of any of this when we first met. I know growing up I was abused many of the same ways, however when we met I fell head over heels that very same day. I mean it was crazy never before has ever happened to me. So ff, we split from living together in 2022. He began dating yet always came back and I couldn’t not love him he was the love of my life. Always going back. I got my own place Jan 2023, diagnosed with breast cancer, and left for the wolves. God told him he couldn’t be even my friend and I needed to be alone. Crushed I was again. On and on Dec. 23, he lost his house, the other girl he’s not allowed at her parents house because the way he acts and is. So second option has always been me. Never talks about anything or anyone but her, before her when we met it had been another past girl always spoken about never once they way he “claimed to love me”. Anyhow I lost that apartment 4 months later because of the arguments, he had already been in jail for other things not having to do with us. I get a house, well he calls the day before he leaves jail and I’m trying to move with no shit luck that day. I’m already on edge and rushed to make a rational decision I wasn’t ready to and agreed for him to come to my new home on bail conditions. Not happy about it, this was summer 2024. Not even 30 hours later I’m kicking him out, this went on all summer, mostly because I’m hip to it won’t allow it and know his lies, manipulation tactics and refuse to allow that kind of abuse anymore. Ff Nov. 2024, I had been woken up 3 times by him standing over me screaming twice because he wants his drugs that I keep so he doesn’t go crazy or do to much. The 3rd time same thing plus something wrong with his foot or something. I get up yelling back , grab my purse to leave which had an axe in it also. It was ripped off my arm he took the axe out and screaming and yelling. I backed against the wall on the footboard of my bed as he began swinging this axe 1 foot away from my head screaming he was going to kill me and chop me up, i grabbed my phone to call 911 and was told with and axe going back and forth that if I called the cops the he would not stop chopping me up into pieces until they got they’re. I had never in my life been so scared and thinking this is it he’s actually really going to kill me this time. I was in shock screaming to stop and I didn’t do anything why is he doing this. He said so many times I was going to die I don’t know how many times the axe went by my head but my footboard was chopped and two big holes in my wall. The axe went flying into my trash can. Still scared to death I begged to go to the bathroom where he followed me and began kicking my door and destroyed the door while screaming in my face so close his spit on landing on me my face and legs. I was froze and not even able to get off the toilet. I began to pray and ask God to save my life tonight please God don’t take me like this. After 30-40 minutes in the bathroom there was a knock at my door. He says the state police were there. OH MY GOD, the relief I felt for a split second. They came in and I refused to say a word until I knew he was in cuffs or not able to get back into my house. I was assured he wouldn’t. Hysterical barely able to breathe I tried to talk. I took out my phone and well don’t you know there had been an emergency call going for over 40 minutes. How I have no idea I don’t remember pressing the call button but by the grace of God I did and my life had been spared that night. With this all being said I have since lost my home which makes two in less than a year due to allowing him around my life, he ONLY GOT, harassment and simple assault two misdemeanor charges for this. He went to jail and got out Dec31, 2024???? How the hell is any of this possible? It’s not fair, I’m scared daily he’ll come finish me off. Continues to contact me and I’m scared to do anything at all. The law has never ever ever done me any justice whatsoever. The ADA Already lied to me and this man needs to pay for once in his life. I’m beginning to find my voice somewhat and ready to put my foot down for us women who don’t get the justice we deserve and have to live in fear for so long. Sorry for the long post but I’m ready to get this started go somewhere with it and have these laws made into something more strict upon domestic violence. It is past time that we take a stand not only for ourselves but our children and families that are affected by this too. We have suffered to long in silence and a man like this is very well capable of killing and believe he will if given the chance. Any of them can and will. They get a slap on the wrist with barely any jail time, some probation with conditions. Do you really think they give a shit about a piece of paper? Absolutely not. If they want us dead we will be dead. So as women who have suffered long enough, lived in fear to long, kept the silence for their abuser, how about we stand up for us and the next woman who is just got attacked, is going to get attacked killed, or doesn’t even know that it could happen to her too? We are more powerful, strong and capable of defending ourselves and getting the laws changed, corrected, fixed, harsher punishments something anything for the sake of our life, being mothers, our children, and families. We will not stand for this anymore. Who’s in with me I can’t do this alone and can’t fight it by myself. Please help me stand up to this for once. It’s time and I know it is.