I hate that I can't flee because of my disability

Before anyone suggests jobs that "I can do", I can't. Every single suggestion you're going to have isn't going to work. I've heard it all before. I know my disability and I not making excuses.

On to the rant:

Everyone knows what happened today. I'm fucking scared. I'm trans, detransition will most likely kill me because transitioning literally saved my life. I went from trying to off myself every month to actually being happy. I can't go back to how it was. I can't go back to looking in the mirror and seeing someone who's not me.

I know people who already left the country because they have means and aren't disabled. I don't get that option because like 90% of countries have a no disabled policy or you have to have means or someone to support you and I have fucking nothing like that.

I'm fucking stuck because of my disability and I have never hated it more in my life.

And you know the worst part? I was finally getting to a good place in my life. I finally started to get a handle on everything, started dealing emotionally with my disability and the fact that it's okay to be a cripple. And now I have to wait every day in fear of waking up. That whether I'm going to find out that my disability benefits have been stripped because that's a possibility according to Project 2025 or that I'll not be able to get my HRT anymore and be forced to detransition.