Those that have survived suicide attempts, do things ever actually get better after?

I've (25f) made 5 suicide attempts in my lifetime, the last being 2 years ago now, and yet I still want to die more than anything. I think my desire to die might actually be stronger now where I think about different ways I could die almost everyday.

I hear stories of people regretting their attempts because things got better, but is that actually true?

The only reason I regret my attempts are because I'm still alive and have to go through the consequences of surviving an attempt (scars, stigma, dissapointed friends/family).

The only reason I haven't tried again is because I'm terrified of surviving and having to go through the aftermath all over again and not actually getting any better.

So my question is: those that have survived their suicide attempts, do you regret it and did things get better for you?