stuck in a loophole

i am going through a really hard time. i am someone who doesn’t have a lot of achievements in life. i have been good at academics but never excellent.

i really wished to join a lot of societies. i knew it would be a challenge for me as i have severe anxiety and not the best at interviews and also do not have any exceptional talents.

the first bump on the road was my late admission in college. i got in thru spot rounds and by that time mostly all relevant socs had closed their applications. therefore, i had missed my chance.

i was in a very avg school which didn’t have any societies. inter school competitions were only communicated to teachers’ pets and no one else was made aware of em.

for this reason, in school i never even had the opportunity to make myself better. today, i gave my first college interview for a soc and couldn’t clear that either.

i didn’t have enough stuff on my CV and was not part of any societies, which was disappointing to the panel. i also do not hold the only skill they were seeking - graphic design and video editing. Since content creation wasn’t even on my CV, i was also taken aback.

i totally understand their POV but i feel i’m stuck in this loop. how can i get any experience if im not given a chance at the first place?

i have signed up for so much stuff for next month including enactus, MUN, case comps etc but now i only feel demotivated. i wanted to get better but now nth seems worth it.

Edit: Stuck in a LOOP* (lmao)