Looked back in an old journal and realized I’ve been single toooo long

I always complain about being single and how the dating world is currently. Then after stumbling across an old journal I used to write in about my day to day to help with anxiety and what not. I saw so many entries over years of talking about how alone I am and how bad dating is.

I keep falling into the same situations over and over - like someone, find something horrible about them or it ends quickly, stay single for monthssss then start over. I’ve been on dating apps for YEARS too. It’s kind of like you don’t realize until you really see a time line.

It made me more worried because when I say I’m scared I won’t find anyone, I realize I might actually not! :(