My secret plan to show up the bride

4 years ago, I was in the ER alone on Christmas Eve. I was contacted by a friend who told me that the man I was going out with was simultaneously seeing my sister behind my back.

Before this, my sister was like a best friend to me. It tore our relationship apart, and even changed our family dynamics (as you could imagine).

Their wedding is coming up in a few months now. Time heals some wounds, but the scars still show. Cheesy, but it’s true.

Because of all this, I am determined to show up my sister on her wedding day, even if it’s just a little bit. She’s been saying for so long that she’s gonna get in shape for her big day, but continues to eat out and lay in bed while binging Netflix.

I’ve been practicing a healthy lifestyle for years now. But especially with the wedding coming up, I NEED to look physically better than her. So I’ve been putting in the work to do it. Early morning runs, passing up on holiday treats, reaching for the veggies instead of chips.

I’ve told only my best friend/roommate of my plan, and I’ve already gotten the “have you lost weight?” questions from people.

Part of me feels guilty for wanting this for myself, but at the same time, it’s just a little internal game I’ve created in my mind. It’s really because of all that has happened to me emotionally in the past 4 years…And because many people I haven’t seen in years will be there, too.

I’m not sure if this is malicious intent on my part or not, because I’m not exactly doing anything to ruin her day. I just know the people who will be there will take note of how I look, and I’m very excited for it.

Edit: thank you for all the kind words and support. I will definitely update when the wedding is said and done :)