23f Slut for old fat men

I have been a long time lurker and account deleter but I finally met up with a guy from online. I have a boyfriend who I really love but we're doing long distance.... So I met up with a 40yr old man who I foumd through locanto. He had to pick me up from my parents house and when I walked down to meet him I was wearing just a short skirt with thigh highs and a little singlet top with no bra and you could clearly see my nipples. We then drove to his and on the way there he was rubbing up my thighs and then my pussy through my panties and omg I was dripping wet. When we got to his we went inside and he was immediately touching up on me and kissing me and taking my top off to suck my titties. Then he said let's get into bed and take our clothes off. I'm a pretty average girl and he was a seriously big man with a belly and all. We made out for a little bit in bed before he said he wanted to fuck me and lay me on my back and slid his dick inside me, I was so slick that he just went right in. He didn't fuck me for long and then said he was going to creampie me which he did and then we lay for a bit before he dropped me home. It was the most disgusting, degrading, humiliating, awful thing I've ever done and I have serious regrets but my pussy is also dripping thinking about it again. Help....