help :(

I’m at loss and i’m really struggling. I’ve had constant flare ups over the last 4 years since getting herpes which really made me sick, then bronchitis and this was all around the time of covid too. I get random flare ups after shit sleep, doing too much, i can only work 20hrs a week without feeling like i’m dying. I get swollen lymph nodes in my groin, whole back starts to ache, feel like i’m getting the flu but doesn’t come to anything. Then I started getting shingles, which messed me up even more. Throw in a baby in that time too, looking after a 2.5 year old with zero support apart from partner. I was fine over christmas holidays and not working. now i’m back at work and did 3 days work, and the last two days since working i’m absolutely fucked all my joints especially in hands are killing me, moves to different spots in my body, the fatigue is unbearable, I can barely look after my toddler when i’m in a flare. I can’t clean my house, cook properly. I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. I take naproxen when I start to feel a flare up and it helps a little bit, takes the edge off to the point I don’t feel like my body is shutting down. Most of my bloods are normal, i’m waiting to see a rheumatologist to rule out arthritis. This is making me so depressed and not wanting to live because I feel i’m getting no help, and no one understands what Im going through. Is this how other people feel?!