The 29 year old virgin

Hi ladies, coming to you because I feel like most of you are supportive and give great advice. Please be kind.

I (29F) come from a background whose religion and culture are strictly against pre-martial sex. Personally, I wouldn’t consider myself religious but lightly practicing. I unfortunately have committed most of the major sins in my faith but the one thing I’ve held on to is my ‘virginity’ because of my fear of disappointing God and my parents.

I’ve had a high sex drive for as long as I remember, so this has been really difficult. I’ve messed around with men and gone to 2nd or 3rd base but never all the way.

But for the past couple of months, I’ve been slowly getting to a point where I just want to casually have sex (while being super careful) because I’m frankly over it. The opportunity has presented itself multiple times but I feel silly doing it with just anyone especially when I held on to it for so long. I am yet to meet my person (who I would’ve ideally lost it to) so I’m guessing they must be lost and can’t find me 😂

Has anyone been in a similar predicament? Am I overthinking it? Should I hold on to it? Appreciate all your words of advice. 🤎