2 nov happy birthday to me

This is my first birthday without sharing it with my twin . I haven’t celebrated my birthday since I was 16 I am now 20 sitting in my room , I kept forgetting it was my day . Even my mother did not wish me a happy birthday . I stood in her doorway waiting but I had to remind her because she thought I was wanting something and until I told her I was trying not to cry so she felt bad and tried to give me a hug ,, It feels really lonely I know I’m not the only one who feels this way it’s just that it really hurts .

Happy birthday everyone