having a mental illness is exhausting

i don’t even know what to say or how to say it but i’m just so exhausted. i’m always so sad or overwhelmed or just so unmotivated and those days are far more occurring than my good days lately and it sucks. i feel like i bring everyone around me down and sabotage people’s good days on accident. it’s not like i really have anything to be depressed about either which just makes it worse but im constantly in the state of feeling empty and like i don’t want to do anything but rot away in bed and it’s draining. sometimes i can get out of this feeling by forcing myself to do hobbies or spend time with loved ones but lately i feel like that’s not even working and it’s just been a bad month and i don’t want to vent to people about it because then im always seen as being down or depressed and then that brings others down and don’t want to feel like someone else’s problem you know. so just trying to fake my way through the depressive episode. anywayssss i hope my moods get better soon.