Is anyone else weirdly bitter that their parents didn't get them help when they were younger?

Looking back I've had distinct episodes of depression and hypomania since I was a teenager.

My parents only did anything when they caught me self harming, in which they brought me to see a doctor once and we never spoke of it again.

I never actually felt better but learned to hide it so I didn't get in trouble. I don't think their actions were malicious just uninformed I guess?

Now I'm in my 30s doing the med roulette and I'm just so tired. Wondering if I started treatment sooner if I'd be in a better place.