How do you cope with homicidal ideations?

I take my meds, I talk to my psychiatrist, I talk to a therapist, I try distractions, keeping busy, and I'm doing things I enjoy, yet it feels so crippling to a point I have fatigue, and my support network is fatigued and have gotten to a point where they have asked me to stop talking about it.

Now I feel suppressed and rejected, even if I understand they need to take care of themselves first. (Why I'm here I guess)

What I want to know is what you others do when you have homicidal Ideations? What helps you most?