tell me about the moment you knew/suspected you had bipolar

i was acting sporadically- unprotected sex, no sleep, spending absurd amounts of money. didn’t really know why.

i saw this tiktok (yes, TIKTOK!) of a woman saying whenever she does a deep clean, that’s when she knew she was about to enter into a manic cycle.

i thought that was interesting, because i deep cleaned right before all this behavior. looked up what manic meant (in an actual medical sense), saw the term “bipolar”, read common signs/symptoms. went “oh, shit!! that’s me!”

therapist diagnosed me a week later.