Why do us bipolar folks intentionally skip meds?

I’m completely stable and feel fine, but my mind is too quiet now. I miss chaos. I know I shouldn’t skip my meds but the silence is deafening. While thinking about this, it led me to the question: Why is skipping medicine so common with us? What reasons did you skip meds? Was it intentional or unintentional?

I feel like I know what the end result is going to be and I still am contemplating. Why are we like this?