I genuinely thought being a mom would be easier.

That's it. That's the whole post. I thought it would be so much easier than it is. I thought how hard can it be to keep a baby alive lol babies only do like 3 things. I didn't anticipate the emotional turmoil, the need to constantly entertain my 5 month old, how hard it is when they're awake for longer, how much they need input at this age, how stressful it is when they don't finish all of their ounces for the day, how when I hear a peep from the monitor at night I literally break out in a cold sweat.

It's just crazy hard. And honestly I wasn't expecting it to be like this. And I want to have another kid but damn that seems so impossible right now.