I’m grieving Tim all over again…

Hi everyone.

I've been going through this subreddit for about an hour, looking to find someone experiencing something similar to me. However i couldn't find anything, so I thought I'd make a post.

I was 16 when Tim/Avicci died, and it really broke me. I am someone that has struggled with mental health, and I always deeply connected to his music and also used it as an outlet. It took me a long time to come to terms with it. I was eventually able to listen to his music with happiness again.

However, about a week ago I watched the new documentary on Netflix. And man... I feel like I'm reliving it all over again, maybe worse?? since I understand the heaviness of his death even more as a 22 yr old. I SOBBED after the doc, and now I can't listen to his beautiful music all over again unless I want to rehash old feelings.

For context : I feel things very deeply in a lot of aspects in my life, and have also used music as a way to handle or express my big feelings.

What do I do? Will this pass?

I don't know why I'm feeling this so deeply, but I can't seem to come to terms with his death again, and the massive loss. I also find it gut wrenching how depressed he was, and how his death occurred.

Some guidance would be appreciated, or even people who are feeling similarly.