Has anyone figured out how to work with their Chiron?

Hi all, I'm writing this in hopes of some much needed help. This is a throwaway account for reasons.

Before you suggest therapy, I'm there.

My Chiron is in Cancer at 29 degrees and conjunct my Cancer sun, in my 2nd house. This life has been so, so hard. Now at the age of 33, I have hit my lowest point and see less and less value of my life and myself. I cannot even explain to you how hard this is. It feels like every decision I've ever made was a mistake, and being belittled from birth by family, friends and anyone with a mouth, has really taken its toll on me. I would not wish this on anyone and yet I know I cannot be the only one to experience such a life as this.

I have always had a strong will to succeed (Leo Jupiter conjunct Leo Mercury square Pluto). But all that willpower feels like it's really running out. I feel like a lawnmower with no gas. Impossible to start and see any brighter tomorrow. These days I feel my purpose may actually be to leave this place "in the big way."

Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone else have a prominent Chiron? How do I actually heal?