Tired of being a slut

Sorry for being the 100th gay to cry about this but…I’m lonely :(

Just recently had an HIV scare( on pep now) from a dl fwb Incounter. Where after I was ignored and blocked until I’m needed it from my body again…

Idk I guess I'm coming off my hoe phase era lol and regret giving my body up to sum interesting…. strangers and insecure about my body count, but it’s so “hard” not DL hookup when lonely

so I really want some advice on how to start actually dating or maybe finding more friends?

I live in a medium-sized city in Tenn. two hours away from multiple major cities but right now I’m in nursing school & and don’t have the courage to move,also I’m really just surround a lot of women

I have social anxiety(medicated) ,scared to date,tall, Black and feminine for context.

My city’s openly gays are usually white.I prefer black or POC, but I do find white men attractive, so no hangups there.

Can you afford this 22yr sum advice ?