Did my past experiences affect me even though I don’t feel anything?

Hi, I'm 23 and have been struggling with social anxiety, especially around men, OCD involving intrusive fears of doing something bad sexually (these thoughts are completely unwanted and distressing), and just general discomfort/fear of being touched or being alone with people.

Recently, l've been reflecting on my past and wondering if certain experiences may have affected me more than I thought. In 8th grade, I was really shy and hated the locker rooms because I felt self-conscious, like people were watching me. Two classmates would tease me almost daily, calling me gay. One day, when we were the only ones left, they turned off the lights and started touching me and grinding on me while laughing. I laughed along because it felt awkward, but I don't remember everything clearly. After that, l started waiting to change until I was alone.

I told my parents about the teasing (but not the other stuff), and they were upset. I then cried and asked “What if I am?" since I was questioning my sexuality at the time. They told me I wasn't, but I now realize l am gay. Right after this event (8th grade too), I tried self-harm once out of pure curiosity of blood and pain (had nothing to do with being distressed).

I wasn’t really distressed at the time and am not distressed thinking about these experiences, and i’d say i was actually quite a happy kid. Hence I never felt these experiences affected me much, but considering my problems today, I wonder if I might have suppressed some stuff. I honestly don’t know what to think abt all this, cuz in my heart i feel nothing but saying it out loud it all does seem abit intense and too coincidental. Should I put any more thought into this?

I'd really appreciate any insights. Thanks!