I can’t take Ft Johnson/polk anymore

I don’t know what to do and didn’t know who to talk to. I’ve been here over a year and I’m so emotionally drained and tired. I don’t know what I did to deserve this.

I have no friends here. I married my husband (dual mil) so we could be stationed together, but now I’m stuck here and he’s always TDY or deployed. My unit is at least nice to me, but that’s it. My life just consists of going to work, (where I was bullied my first few months here; I work with mostly civilians) and coming to sit in an empty house. I have to drive 2+ hours to do anything I enjoy- the only two things you can do here is go to the gym or get pregnant. Everyone always says the same thing: “it’s a great place to go hunting/fishing!” shut up.

I have no escape. I feel suffocated in this disgusting state with it’s disgusting scenery, weather, infrastructure, everything. I’ve always been seen as the most positive, happy go lucky soldier in every unit i’ve ever been in and everyone would always joke about it .. but I can’t do it anymore. I need to escape this hellhole. I want to run away. Im always alone and have no one to ever talk to. All I do is sleep on my days off and fight back tears every time I leave work. I need help but I’m scared to reach out. Why does it feel like I’m the only one struggling here?

What do I do? I’ve never felt like this in the few years I’ve been in the army ☹️