Tutal lagi naman ako mag-isa, naisip ko lubusin ko na and travel solo. Haha

I'm a 28/F single doctor. Never experienced the "real" world. Always been sheltered at home. Spent my whole life confined by rules, family, and the need to prove myself.

I have friends yes but we're adults now and I'm ashamed to say I didnt get to keep one. All those whom I thought I could journey life with eventually had their own lives to figure out. Okay lang naman.

Medyo masakit but who am I to hold them back. So ayun, for the longest time I had to make peace na I'm on my own.

I dont know but being a doctor makes it harder for me to connect back to the people I used to share my inner thoughts and aspirations. Busy ako lagi. Dagdag mo pa na hindi ako magaling. Haha. Such a wonder how I am still here.

And this holiday season even my family ay aalis. I'd be spending my favorite season alone. Hindi naman to first time nangyari but I feel like ibinuhos ko buong buhay ko to get to where I am only to end up alone. Drama haha

Pero ayun, next month i would have a few days off and naisip ko why not travel. Wala ako makasama and i thought so why bot go solo. Tutal mag-isa naman talaga ako sicne then edi ilubos ko na. Hahahahaha

Anyone here na nagtravel solo for the first time despite your insecurities? Haha how was it? I'm thinking of overseas pero Asia lang sana coz wala ako time mag ayos ng visa pa hahahaha

Edit: Realized parang ang off pala basahin nung part na doktor ako at hirap ako magconnect haha. I just meant after years of isolating myself and working hard to get that MD, tagal ko naging MIA and during those times, their lives went on and on na nawala na ako sa sa radar talaga ng mga taong malapit sakin dati.