Being a fat lesbian…

I have never felt desirable. I know that my personality is fine, but I’m starting to believe that no one will ever desire me physically. I don’t think I am appealing no matter how hard I try.

I’ve been in relationships and situationships, but I’ve never been called beautiful by any of my partners. None of my partners have ever expressed they like how I look. I worry it’s my body. I have a tummy and fat arms, my legs touch and jiggle. I wouldn’t judge another for looking the way I do…but I can’t seem to be gentle with myself. The beauty standards in the lesbian community are rough you guys :/

I know self-love is a journey and all that, but I really just want to commiserate with y’all and ask how y’all cope with feeling totally undesirable? Thanks <3