Homeless with kids…

I’m extremely embarrassed but I’m also at an all time low… We’re in a seedy motel right now- myself, my spouse who is also a vet, and our 3 kids. I really am disappointed and idk…I feel like a failure. I’ve called 4 different veteran homeless centers as well as my social worker…I’ve been trying for housing for a month now. But they either have nothing or aren’t open on the weekends.

I left the military and everything has gone to shit. I’ve applied to multiple jobs every week for 3 months now…nothing. We’re both prior 2A from the Air Force. My spouse pulled a part time job at Home Depot and it’s letting us buy diapers… Idk what I’m doing…. I think I’m just here looking for assurance. I’m tired of crying. I think the only thing stopping me from doing something dumb is my kids dependency on me. But damn I’m so tired of constant losing.

ETA- thank you all for your kindness and information. You’ve helped me more than I can get across this screen.