All i want is to die

Just because I'm not attractive. I literally want to die because I'm not attractive. Or attractive enough. I want to be perfect and don't want to settle for any less. I dont want to be an ugly pathetic creature.

I really really really really want professional help so much because I think that's the only thing that can help me, and even that isn't guaranteed.

I just want to cry. But what will the psychologist tell me? "You dont have to be pretty" or "why dont you think about something else?" No. I NEED to be pretty, that's my biggest dream. Yes, i have body dysmorphia.

I'm just so tired of everything. From now on till eternity I'll always be miserable. I know that if i ever get a partner, they won't be attracted to me. Or if they'll be, they won't be attracted enough. It will be something like "just a little" attracted. No one is going to be SUPER attracted to me. Just, good enough, because at least it's some bitch they can get.

I just want out of here. I wish for death.