I’m mad about my big penis

I am 35M i’m honestly mad about my penis size. I find that most women I date I believe are into me for my character, my integrity and possibly my future while I’m looking for a wife once I whip it out and show them they either run away scared or they’re really really obsessed with it like consistently their whole perspective change and then they just want nonstop sex quite frankly I’m over feeling like a sexual object in a tool for sexual gratification.