i can’t stop crying it hurts so bad

i just woke up to my boyfriend of 1 year confessing to me that he’s been manipulating me and lying to me for our entire relationship, and 80% of the things i thought i knew about him were all lies. i don’t understand how he could do this to me. it. hurts. so. bad. i thought he was my home. i thought he would stay with me the rest of my life. we had so many plans that i truly thought we would do someday, but it was all a lie, and i can’t stop crying or get out of bed or turn my lights on or anything. i don’t want to move. i want to fall asleep and never wake up again. we were so close, i loved him like ive never loved anyone before in my 22 years of life. we had so many plans to travel, ive wasted hundreds of dollars on him. we used to spend time with each other every night for ours, we did last night. and i wake up to him sending me a 15 paragraph message about how everything was a lie. i can’t do this.