i don’t understand

i don’t understand why im so angry at everything. it isnt always. sometimes im very good at not getting heated up and reasoning with the issue but like 30 minutes ago i ripped my underwear and i guess maybe its because i dint have a lit but i in turn punched my fan off the wall, broke that. and ripped both my anklets (favorite jewelry) off. why the fuck am i like this. the littlest shit makes me so upset and violent and i do not know what to do. i dont have the money to keep destroying things irrationally then thinking about it 5 minutes later and regretting it. i didnt even mean to break the fan.