My jade bracelet broke.

I got matching jade bracelets with my mother for her birthday, I’m not customaed with how they’re supposed to be put on, so I came up with my own thing.

I let her pick which bracelet out of the two she wanted. I put a bracelet on her and she put a bracelet on me. It was a very cute moment. I believe it’ll give us good luck and fortune for the future. Her birthday is on the first of January so it felt extra special.

My resolution for the new year was to cold turkey on my SH. I understand now that the intention was good, but my execution was—has been extremely flawed. I did try and suppress the urge to hurt myself. Not hard, but I did try.

Today I notice my bracelet was chipped, it hasn’t completely snapped in half, but there’s about one fourth of an inch that’s completely missing, and if I look to the side close enough, the split has gone completely through the stone. I have no idea when it happened, but I’m glad I noticed.

I’m not the superstitious type but my gut is telling me it snapped because of what I did. I don’t know if I should take the bracelet off and get another one or wait until it shatters to get a replacement. Getting another would be nice I guess, but I’d hate to lie to my mom and tell her how it broke—or how I think it broke.

I know in some cultures a jade bracelet breaking is good luck because all the bad energy goes into the bracelet and when it “does its job” it shatters, but I don’t feel that way. The gift was supposed to be everlasting, something to be worn for years, something that could possibly be passed down… and i Immediately fucked it up.