When did you notice changes?

Pretty much the title. I am on session 13 and not feeling any better (feels even worse because I'm feeling that deep hopelessness again). My current MT is 46 and I've been on 120% since my first day. I was remapped last week and my MT went up to 46 (no idea what it was at first) and I have had terrible headaches for the last 2 days but every time the tech asks me how it feels I said "good" because I'm nervous that if I go down in strength it won't help.

I have tried 10+ meds and ketamine. Have been in talk therapy for years. And just nothing helps. Feeling very discouraged, but my clinic never really told me when the average person starts feeling a little better (likely because it changes for every person). So I guess I'm just wondering if there are others who found relief later in treatment? I also recognize that I'm not even 1/3 of the way through, but I just want to hear stories from others to try and combat my hopelessness. TIA!