Just don't care.

Does anyone else ever feel like they just don't care? Don't care about living. Don't care about dying. Just here.

I don't really know how to explain what I'm feeling. I just feel like I've come to a point where I've experienced enough pain that I'm numb to this life. I don't want to be alive, but I don't want to die. I don't know what comes after this. It could be worse than this hell.

I consider ending my life but then I think about the aforementioned.

I don't care about my job. I don't care if I lose it. I don't care if I don't survive. This reality has drained me of the person I used to be. I used to like helping people. I used to like hanging out with friends. Now all I feel is pain. Every second of every day.

This hellhole did this to me. I wish I never existed. Existence is a curse for so many people in this place. Why is this place like this?

I don't know what to do. I am crying as I'm typing this.

I hate feeling like this.