Meditation is the way

On my current streak (about 97 days in) , I started experiencing way too much frustration. My belief was that by resisting tempation and keeping myself pure , I'll be rewarded with benefits. Even though I was weight training and practing MMA on the rest days , my urges never really went away by that much.

Throughout this entire streak I have not edged or watched anything on the internet, i was following cellibacy. But I just started to become excessively anxious, jittery and afraid of people. As the streak went over 80 days , my mind started to play tricks on me. When i would be close to falling asleep on my bed , i would get desire to release. Even in those difficult situations i never gave in to tempation.

I was basically going about my day just anxious and afraid of people, it felt as though my nerves are out of whack. Life was not pleasant at all. I still never gave up hope, i kept pushing through. I did experience things like 1.) Women staring at me in public. 2.) Babies getting excited to see me for no reason. 3.) Dogs getting excited around me. But I was just anxious and frustrated.

I then saw this YouTube video that showed up on my feed talking about mistakes people make on Semen retention, i watched the video (it was relatively unpopular channel with just 357 views on that video). This individual explained all the mistakes people make while practicing brahmacharya and their consequences in a very logical way. I got the answer to my problem, when he said "Without meditation on this path, failure in inevitable".

I'm certainly not new to meditation, in fact i have meditated here and there for an entire year and have felt slightly calm, but I never did it as a daily transmutative practice throughout my Semen retention journey of 3 years(on and off).

It's just been 4 days now , since i started to practice pranayam followed by Meditation. My anxiety is finally leaving me and I feel extremely calm and peaceful. In fact today was the first day when I was actually happy. My burning desire for sex has greatly reduced and I feel calm and powerful. Each passing day I'm experiencing heaven on Earth. Just completely peaceful and powerful at the same time. I feel peaceful as though i have ejaculated while being completely celibate. SR has become insanely easier now.

SR and meditation must go hand in hand. After some point physical exertion cannot transmute all of your sexual energy, you will be restless. Meditation is a very powerful way to transmute all the sexual energy into higher consciousness. I personally meditate and working out(helps with recovery).

And also if benefits are not coming as quickly to you , meditation will fix it. Quite surprising that I haven't had any nocturnal emissions for 2 weeks now.