reiki request. in immense pain

i’m in a major depressive episode. i would be immensely grateful for some healing energy passed through to me. i think i’m really in need of release

i’ve been in this episode for a few months after a (traumatic) experience

i’m trying to work through it with therapy, yoga, meditation and writing but now that i’m out of the dissociation i was in i feel absolutely horrible about myself all the time and utterly hopeless. i have absolutely no motivation, i don’t know what else to do and i can’t afford to pay for reiki sessions:( (i’m a college student). i’m at a point where i’m coming to all of these realizations about repressed memories and i’m just so lost and absolutely miserable. i think this is something that could potential truly help me

i ask with respect, i would be so incredibly thankful ♥️