Recs to be a door opener

So.. i was watching this interview with david byrne and the jist of what he said was that hes always been shy so he uses his extraverted friends as a social buffer.. which is what i do but,, my extraverted friends are now leaving town leaving me as a flightless bird. My standards for friendship are so high and im a neurotic sassy hipster male,, point is i dont allow spontaneous adventure and open beautifulness to happen to me when it comes to socially being. I tend to judge and sit neurotically,, leaving doors closed,, instead of my friends who opened doors for me.. the other friends i have are also neurotic door closers so im avoidant.. i would like to be like my door opener friendst and open doors for my door closers and escape this fake jail,, Any resources to help fix this???