Witnessing the man I thought was the best critical thinker regress into an illiterate bigot

Sooooo for some context, my dad is a native American man who always, ALWAYS taught me when growing up to never trust the U.S Gov. Bc they never honor the treaties they sign. He taught me about the democratic countries in South America that the U.S overthrew, the truth about Christopher Columbus before it was super widespread in the public eye about how he brutalized natives. He taught me about how Father Junipero Sera was actually a POS who brutalized the natives that wouldn't convert to Catholicism. He taught me about the U.S gov. Testing drugs like LSD on private citizens, military service members, and political enemies thru MKULTRA.

Years pass, he becomes an avid QANON follower, talking about how "George Soros is controlling the world with his billions, and that a cabal of the global elite who are pedophilic and satanic want to start a New World Order". Yet, even though he believes all of this, he voted for the billionaire that is known friends with Epstein, and has been electing all of his billionaire friends to cabinet positions. Which is like .... If you believe George Soros is a billionaire trying to influence the world with his money and is in the pedophilic cabal of global elites, why is Trump different when he is A: a billionaire, B: known friends with Epstein, C: has multiple r@p3 accusations, D: electing other billionaires to cabinet positions.

Like his vote is entirely at variance with the beliefs of qanon in a way. Yeah ik they always thought Trump was like a "good billionaire" but there is no such thing. It's so weird to see the person you thought was one of the best critical thinkers in your life, regress to such a state of willful ignorance. Part of me is thinking it is lead poisoning bc he was a truck driver for like 40 yrs and it was back gasoline had lead in it.

It's also like so weird bc I can bring up factual evidence of trump lying and it gets brushed of as A: a joke, B: liberal media propaganda trying to make him look bad, C: fake news (again). It's particularly hurtful tho bc I'm gay, have sooooo many trans friends and gay friends who are going to be negatively impacted. I tell him how it's going to screw me and my friends over, he says I'm over reacting and dramatic even tho under his last term it became legal to discriminate in the medical field based on someone's sexuality/gender if treating them violates their religion. Like I have 2 friends in Texas looking to move out to California and become roommates with how the situation is looking (possibility they won't be able to receive their estrogen any more and it's scary bc the Nazis destroyed a facility that studied gender/sexuality as one of the first things they did, as well as the fact that statistically suicide rates drop after transition)

Then he believes the tariffs will work when it's just kinda dumb to believe that. Like 2 schools of thought to help inflation is raise tariffs/lower taxes (cost is passed onto consumer), or lower tariffs/raise taxes (the taxes on the rich help and make sure that working class is chillin), I tell him, the last time we raised tariffs to help the economy was after the stock market crashed and was what turned a depression into the Great depression. He hits me with a "well we'll Fckng see what happens if he raises the tariffs" and I just feel so disheartened about it man.

He asks me why I don't come to visit as much as I used to, and it's like, he voted for someone that will actively make life HELL for my friends/community. I tell him this and get a "you shouldn't let politics ruin a relationship", but it's like, if your "politics" are actively harmful to me and my community, how much do you really care about me? Like Iespecially when it comes to trans people it is very upsetting, like he always hits me with a "I'm fine with trans as long as they don't make it their whole personality", but it's like?.... You're saying, "you're fine with somebody as long as they don't act like themselves? That means you're not fine with them..."

Idk sorry to ramble and rant, this has been building and festering in my brain. Like also just wanted to say lead poisoning can impact someone's cognitive ability and levels of empathy, and it's one of those things that takes years sometimes to manifest. So that's why I think it's like lead poisoning