Are mental hospitals as bad as everyone says?

Hi, title self explanatory. Tw for mention of suicide attempts

Excuse the new account, please. I lost access to my old phone number and had to make a new one.

Within the past 3 months, I have tried to kill myself 2 different times. Both were extremely unsuccessful, and neither of which was I hospitalized (one was earlier this week). I’ll be totally honest, I really need help. Therapy just isn’t cutting it and I also feel so paranoid of my surroundings like everyone is out to get me and it’s a miserable existence because I can never shake it even if I’m being positive and happy

So, in comes the question of mental hospitals. I’m 20 years old, and would admit myself voluntarily. Are they really as bad as everyone says? What are the pros and cons of going to one voluntarily? Do I have any other hope being outpatient somehow?

Thanks. I would appreciate it if you don’t comment anything overly negative about how it “doesn’t get better”.