I feel too “in control”

My psychologist believes I am delusional. I can recognise that my thoughts and beliefs seem bizarre and fits the stereotypical “delusions of persecution and grandeur”. So, I don’t usually speak about them out loud. I act on them in covert ways. It takes a lot of energy, and my mind feels completely fragmented and in ruins and I can barely remember to shower, and my levels of functioning have fallen a lots but I am still “in control” and I still feel sane. So, I don’t believe I am (close to being) psychotic. I just feel anxious and extremely stressed by my sorta weird thoughts that I know to be true.

Anyone else relate?