My dog died yesterday

I just need to write this post to get this off my chest.

Yesterday my 15 year old dog died. She woke up around 1 from a nap disoriented, unable to walk, and panting heavily. I tried rubbing on her as she struggled to breath, but it really frightened me when she passed out. I picked her up and rushed her to the vet. The last memory I have is of her being carried away on a little stretcher and then someone coming back 30 minutes later to tell me she didn't make it. I went down to see her, rubbed on her, gave her a kiss goodbye, and then took the chain off she was wearing.

What hurts the most is the thought of her being back there in a room full of strangers or with no one at all as she took her last breaths. I'm not sure if I will ever be able to get over her looking back at me as they carried her out of the room. If I would have known yesterday would have been her final day I would have been there beside her, rubbing on her, and making her feel loved.

Life just won't be the same without her and I miss her.