Adrenaline dump while sleeping that fucks up your entire day????

Yesterday I woke up sweating so much, having insane dreams and when I was actually able to sit down in bed, all I wanted was to not be there. My heart was racing so bad and I had this whole body feeling that something wasn’t right. I felt like I was having a panic attack but at the same time it wasn’t cuz I was fine. It was like my body was having a panic attack, not me. I felt disassociating and out of control. So I rushed to the toilet, washed my face and brushed my teeth but I was still having this chest pain overwhelming me. Then I went to the couch, my cat on top of me, my partner brought me a toast and tea, but nothing tasted like it usually does. I tried staying there but I was so anxious. Not on my mind, but my body. Idk how to explain it?? I went to the bathroom, I really wanted a shower but I didn’t have the strength to do it. I didn’t want to feel even worse than I was already. So I just got some basic flare up days hygiene and came back to my dark room. I took 6mg of Lexotan and eventually I slept. I like Lexotan cuz it doesn’t give you hungover, it kinda resents your nervous system (at least with me). Well, I slept (it was 10 am). My boyfriend woke me up at 2 pm saying I needed to eat something and gave me lunch. I ate cuz it was delicious, but something in it trigged another flare up of adrenaline dump. This time I was tired and overwhelmed and tbh, suicidal thoughts were taking over me. So I took 2mg of Xanax. I know it can be/is a lot for people, but those as the dosages I’ve always taken in momentos where i just don’t want/cant deal with my body. Then I slept. I woke up 10 pm with this sorrow feeling inside me. wtf was this day? Why did I sweat so much during sleep? I’ve been having such a nice routine. I wake up in the morning, I clean tha house as much as I can, I’ve been feeling like I have a purpose, and then my body goes “hey honey, don’t forget you’re broke” and attacks me. So yeah, I took another 2mg of Xanax and slept the whole night. I woke up now at 6 am to pee, took another 3mg of Lexotan and I hope it’s Beene just a bad day for me.

No worry people, I’m not addicted to these benzos. I take them only in days like this wheee I gust can’t do anything. I can’t watch tv, o can’t play video games, I can’t listen to podcasts, I simply can’t exist. They happen 2,3 times a year, so I’m fine. I’m also not addicted to benzos, that’s why I feel like yeah I can use their benefits here and there instead of suffering.

I just wanted to vent and ask you what’s your tips that work for you when you’re in dispare like I was? Nothing really happening, just my body not responding to my brain and my brain kinda disconnected???? Do you have these awful adrenaline dumps while sleeping that simply take your day from you? What do you do? What does help?