help…

i’ve been using 2-5 blues daily for 4 months now. i tried to quit about a month ago and took a suboxone and threw myself into precipitated withdrawal. it was complete and utter hell for 2 days. i went right back to using because that pwd was just so mentally traumatizing. i want to quit so bad. but i’m so scared of the hell i have awaiting me when i finally do stop. i am so scared of withdrawals. especially because of how long they last. i feel like i will never be normal again and it scares the absolute shit out of me. i don’t even use to get high anymore. i just want to feel normal. words of wisdom anyone? maybe some encouragement or personal stories that will ease my mind?