He has no plans of marrying

Please pang dito lang. Don't share outside sub pls. My boyfriend of 6 years finally said he has no plans of marrying. Napag usapan namin 'to weeks before my birthday last year. I initiated the conversation about where our relationship is headed, what's our plan gonna be in the long run, since magbbirthday nga ako so I'm getting bday blues kasi nga I'm getting old (around mid 20s, don't wanna say exact age) so I wanted to get a vision of what's ahead and how I'm gonna plan my personal life too considering pa rin na nasa bf/gf stage pa kami.

It then hit me nung sinabi niya na parang ayaw niya magpakasal at all. Ofc masakit kasi okay naman kami (ok teary-eyed nako haha). I know we're kinda still young pa rin naman pero hearing that from him is like straight up "ayaw kita pakasalan" or "hindi kita papakasalan" okay iyak na talaga ako. Nabigla ako kasi hindi ko inexpect. I know he has his reasons, maaaring personal goals niya, marami pa siyang gustong mabili, magawa, maexplore. For the record, walang financial problems ah. Sa isip isip ko, why keep me if you're not dating to marry pala? Gusto niya lang ba company ko for, 6 years and more?

I love him. Wala pa naman din talaga sa isip ko na magpakasal, pero kung tatanungin syempre i'd say yes. So sabi ko na lang, kahit na live-in ba wala kaming plano to be together and so on. I decided to end the relationship that time mismo. But then we talked about it and somehow met halfway. Nagdisclaimer naman din ako na hindi ko sure if I'd forever agree with him na hindi magpakasal and he said the same. After ilang months, ngayon na lang kami nagtalo. And he just said nawawalan na siya ng gana. Nasaktan ako, at the same time parang medyo natakot ako na parang "ay ganun na lang, wala na siya gana iiwan na ba niya ako?" Bumalik to lahat sa utak ko. Kasi I gave us a chance, pero I have this feeling na parang pinapatagal ko na lang yung relationship namin. Hays labas ko lang here. Wala lang ako mapagsabihan.

EDIT: To add context, nung nagbalikan kami after namin pag usapan yung marriage, I said na in 4-5yrs I see myself settling down with a PARTNER, kasal or di kasal. Ganyan mismo sinabi ko. I remember him answering na hindi niya mapapangako na ready na siya by then. Pero yet again hindi ko na po ma disclose pero naayos pa namin that led us to this day.

PS: Wag po post sa ibang platform please. Ty.