24F ,I don't wanna date- Directly wish to marry

I have given up on trying to find love and even if someone tries to convince me they like me,I am just tired of not able to believe because everything looks like a facade to me. To me love itself looks a big facade and I have given up on my dating life . Now I just Directly wish to marry but I am not sure who will I and how long would it even go ,the important part is I cannot put any type of efforts for anyone but I just want someone and neither I want someone else to put efforts,I just want them to stay that's it like just FUCKING STAY !!!!! And do not cheat ofcourse and neither I am someone who is into cheating but just stay and marry directly because giving anyone chance in dating looks very dangerous. And tbh deep down I know I have given up on love but just directly marry . Honestly I am ready to do all household chores and everything but do not expect more because I don't think so I can put more efforts either as it keeps feeling like I have reached the breakeven point in my life where I cannot put any efforts for anything properly.

I am not in right state of mind and I definitely have chosen that flair itself and as for people who want to laugh my stupidity or whatever as they wrote in comments ,people literally post stupid content here more so ever and I am just writing whatever I am feeling

To all men literally writing tf and tf story about me , I really wanna say that had I actually projected whatever I felt in real ,I would have already been married with some or other person accepting the conditions but people bashing me that I am screwing up a man's life and all that's why I have only rejected the men who tried of dating because I know their priorities are different and I have become like this because of my trauma. Also to people who think I am screwing up man's life and all . There are men who never move on past a stage because of what happened in their past to their ex and all and then bring that same drama in the current relationship looking for rebound - I am still just putting my right behaviour out there so whats wrong ?

Edit - Also had the same post been written by a man then everyone would have empathizing oh brother how much I feel for you and sort of shit but just because I wrote it became all wrong and how I am screwing up a man's life and there is no man in the picture at this point even that I have got so much hate for And the same shit men can write 10000 times how he is comparing his new partner to her ex , then it's not emotionally unavailablity infact it should be looked high in the society . Lol patriarchy asf