Porn has ruined me

I can't even tell you how bad its gotten for me, I've been addicted for years on years and I feel completely lost.

I lost my gf a few years back, I lost myself in the process and honestly has ruined my whole life. I have tried so many times to bounce back but even now it feels like I can't even do it anymore.

PMO makes you do things you wouldn't wanna do in real life, made me into someone I am ashamed of and has destroyed my soul.

I did NoFap in 2020 during covid times and it really changed my life but then I relapsed and went down an even darker path...I realised I was doing NoFap for the wrong reasons (for females) instead of doing it for myself and for a better future.

I won't get into details because there's way to much to say but I will say this, I would appreciate it if anyone could lift my spirit's or even just give me genuine advice to overcome this?

Thanks for reading!