I feel like giving up on YouTube

It's been a year and over 28 vids and I have 146 subscribers. It hurts so much to see people having their first video blowing up,getting 300k views and getting 5k subscribers in 3 days. Video creating used to be fun but all the fun in lost when the video is posted! It never gets results. I get frustrated and feel like an absolute shit. Maybe I am not built for this. One factor that's super important is luck,no matter how much anyone denies it and I don't seem to have that! It hurts when I see people putting out half assed content and it gets blown up. No effort in thumbnails,description box empty,failing in the SEO side,yet succeeding. I think it's time to give up on this dream! I will not give up just now,will put in a few more months but then,I will quit. I could persevere had everyone's journey been tough but people blowing up on their FIRST video?? This is something that I can't take. I haven't had that luck in 1 year of posting.This has really dampened my spirit. I feel like crying soo hard.

Edit: I am so so sooo grateful to all of you kind people who gave me feedback and constructive criticism while being gentle to my feelings. I didn't feel like picking up a camera before but now I feel like I have the strength to continue and grind. I will take all your advices to heart and hope to prosper. Thanks a lot y'all!