I've picked up smoking again and feel ashamed.

I've been on hormones for around five months, but the first batch of HRT I got was a very low dosage.

I was developing breast buds, my skin got softer, and I felt better. I can look at my face in the mirror now.

I got kicked out of my living situation last week, and immediately relapsed into smoking cigarrettes as soon as they were offered to me. I had previously quit a year ago because I heard it counteracts HRT.

And it's true. My nipples are less swollen now, which has me worried that all of this progress is going to waste.

I'm dealing with a lot more than this, but it's had me down for a few days. I think I'll make it a new year's resolution to quit again (or at least cut down to once per week/month), but I just wanted to get this off of my chest.