Lost my carriers.

After having 30 days of carries for almost 5 years I lost the privilege today. Just need to share it somewhere. Its almost comical how it happened. Ive been sick with a bad cold and i woke up around 430 feel bad, so i took my dose and some motrin and laid back down. Around 730 i get up and get ready for work and grabbed a dose opened it up and as im putting in my mouth it hits me what Ive done. I try to call my counselor but no answer at the clinic.

2 hours later i get a call....call back. 1st one in a very long time. I almost laughed at how unlikely this is. I know that I could seal my bottle back up and highly unlikely they would catch it. But after some reflection, im not lying junkie anymore, so I go in, hand my box and let them know one is open. They tested it to make sure its methadone and it is.

Now i get to go back and dose every morning. I am sad at the situation, im sad that they are judging me and feels like they think im a liar. But i am proud of how i handled myself, and this too will pass. Edit:Sorry for the grammer and spelling